You've always been here
Five years
I call you
& you come to me,
with whatever piece of you I require
Which is why I get no sympathy
for staying up all night
hysterically whining
that I need you
I say,
"I miss him so much
I can feel my body aching
every second of every day"
And they just look at me
with confused eyes,
releasing frustrated sighs
as to say... he never left...
But,
Those pieces
The ones you give to me
are nothing but painful reminders
that I no longer have the whole thing
They'll never know
how much of you I've actually lost
Because all they see is you standing in front of me,
holding my skull into your chest,
and wiping the tears off my cheek bones
They see you here
But you & I
both know you're not

Just a ghost
A lingering reflection
A still frame

A shadow

of an affection

that once meant everything