It’d be easier if I didn’t want you
More than even that
Enjoy you
It’d be easier

Easier not to care
But we don’t get to choose
Those kinds of things
And it’d be easier
To turn it off but
I can’t quite control myself with you
It’d just be easier

Because things like this
Don’t really happen to me
I’m not really the type
To be swept and caught up
Thinking the way I am now
Wondering the way I am now
Wishing even

Yeah
It’d be easier not to wish
But I can’t really help it
Seeing you
Talking to you
Laughing with you
****

You’re so deep inside my head
It’s impossible to stop it
Impossible to not think of you
To not need you in every way
How did you do that?

It’d be easier not to feel that way
More so now that I know
I was never an option in the first place
It’d be easier if that thought didn’t bother me
But **** it

I want you
In a stupid
I don’t give a **** about anything
Kind of way
More than just your touch
I want your soul
Want those eyes
And your thoughts
And every other
Stupidly perfect ******* thing about you
I want you
Your words
Your stories
Your kindness
I want your good and bad days
Your mistakes
Your successes
I want so much of this dumb **** with you
I can’t even remember why I avoided it
And that’s why it’d really
Be ******* easier if I didn’t

Because for the first time in years
Everything just seemed to click instantly
And it’s so ******* hard to ignore
Because you’re you
And ****….
You?
You’re everything.