We've tried time and time again and it didn't work and that's on me. Now you're gonna go to college and I'm going in the Navy. All the pain I've caused you will always be my biggest regret. And you'll always be someone I never forget. You know I love you and you are my north star in my sea of seemingly never ending drama and trauma. When it comes to you I'm always in a dilemma. Do i be selfish and try to be with you again. Or do I finally let you go so you can find your dream man. I am truly sorry for my selfish actions. Especially since I always get the same reaction. Idk if we will ever be together in the future or not. But at least for now I can't shake the feelings that I've caught. Because of you I will always stride to be a better human being. I also know that seeing is believing. So let me show you the man that I can be. Because you're the only one I want to spend my eternity.