So here I am again
With the confused state of mind

What I was thinking when I was making this decision for life
Did I think it through
Did I considered all the possibilities

Looking it back I believe I could have done better
I deserved better but as it is said it is the destiny that decides the way and you are just the carrier
Maybe that’s true maybe that’s not

But this is heavy
The feeling to leave all that I am living right now
The feeling to feel alone despite being surrounded by millions
The feeling to constantly taken wrong
The feeling to just change the one decision you took and life could have been better

I didn’t think this through and I seriously didn’t

There were numerous things happening around you that time and the decision wasn’t taken in a righteous state of mind

And yes certainly it wasn’t
When I see the relation constantly drifting apart and collapsing each day like a building collapsing after a heavy magnitude quake

Can it be repaired?
I wonder it can

The words, you can not take back
And words are all it takes

To make or break.

You want this to work?
I don’t know
You want this not to work?
I don’t know

But leaving is not easy
You don’t what’s there in the future
But isn’t life all about taking risk?
Again, till when?

When will I be stable then?
When will I think bigger in life?
Maybe now?
No?
Maybe tomorrow?
Yes?

Situations are in your hand
It certainly is in your hands
All you have to do is make peace with it and accept it.

Babes you don’t have to prove anyone
You know what you are
And why can’t this be enough?

But isn’t it unfair that the person sleeping next to you takes you as his biggest enemy?

Can you do something about it?
Sometimes I wonder why don’t I have a pill to pop up for that
But yes this isn’t a disease that can be treated with a prescription.
It’s a life
Has to be treated with actions

Or maybe life is the disease and actions are it’s medicine.
Maybe yes.
Maybe I should start it all over again.

After hearing all this?
Will you be able to??
Maybe I haven’t learned to give up this easily!!
But isn’t 8 months to long for that?
Maybe too short in comparison to the life time commitment you made.

Maybe I should think
Think and just think
Change and let this sink in.

Take one step at a time but take daily.