Somedays I'm so angry all I see is red
And it can't be fixed by words said
Sometimes I'm so lost in my own head
I feel I've lost months of my life
Theses moments filled with strife
People all around, but it's just me crying in front of that mirror
Am I ever gonna be someone's wife?
Or are things as grim as they appear?
They're are days so dark just the thought of leavin this bed hurts
Another day no show at work
The fact that most days I couldn't care less
Well, that stress could lead to an early death
Some nights I stare out my window
Staring at all the twinkling stars
I really question my life's purpose
The moonlight shines bright on all my scars
My head carries on like a circus
I bury my head in my knees, covering my ears
Shushing the negative voices that have been with me for years
Everyday I know I'm whining
All the time I want an easy fix
But nothin every sticks
All the time these chains are binding
I have to break free
This self hatred is quickly killing me
The key to unlock this madness lays on the floor just outta my reach
Taunting me
I think I get it
You gotta practice what you preach
Today no matter who's near, I'm the only one who can change
My eyes start to droop
Been up for days, so it's not all that strange
Over thinking, under doing
Under going
Glaring at the key
As if its all knowing
But I look at myself in the mirror again
The key does know how to change this gloomy fate
Going in this direction I'm clearly far from winning
Still not sure what I'm losing
Everything, everyone is gone
And I'm fading out like an over played song
I'm losing me to me
I slide to the ground, chains clinking against each other
All wrapped up I lay my head down
Stare out the window
My mind goes blank
And tonight for a short period of time
Life lets me be