I fall so quickly
I have no time to prepare
Although this is nothing new
As I fear

My hands that feed our babies
And cook the food
Suddenly has to protect
I crawl upon the floor
Picking up the remnants of my tooth
Tears strain to appear
Forced to clean up the blood I made
As the rag soaks up the red
I hurry to be done

My son finds pieces of my tooth
He is excited the tooth fairy will come
I wish something magical would occur

Some ask how do you love him?
Why don't you leave?
I love this man with all I have
If I leave he will **** me
Besides I have no power over him
He is strong and I'm weak

My eyes were given to him now he can see
My mouth was given to him now he can breathe
My heart was given to him but nothing changed
On that cold winters day
The shot gun was so loud it made me fade away
I got the message loud and clear
The only thing I owned was fear
I don't wear it well ,in fact it don't fit
I never looked good in black and blue

We sit in the kitchen its a quiet night
You get angry and flip the table
Glass is everywhere I try to clean
You put your large hands to my face
As my heart does a race
My skin feels like it will tear
I hold still my eyes are in pain
I struggle to speak
I have no voice
This is not how I want to live
Hands are suppose to be tender
A kiss should be soft
Not a bite of the lips
I'm so weary
I'm lost
It's time to move on
I shall never return

He wants me one last time
I remain still as he undresses me
Pulls my hair as he enters me
Filling me with his sickness
I begin to bleed
Dressing myself as my whole body aches

Mysteriously he agrees
I know this may not be the end
But I walked through the door
Had my babies at my side
Something magical had happened
I became alive