The majority of my life I was dependent on things wether it was adults from youth or the insecurities they nurtured Both led to dependency on many different types of abuse All the bad examples, advice and role models led straight to the bad vices such as alcohol and drug abuse in my attempts to numb the pain, in an attempt to stop the strain, in an attempt to clear my brain but all I accomplished was more falseness to further nurture more pain within myself and pain to be brought onto others Many loved ones lost the cost of not handling my business and delaying the inevitable because eventually there’s no running from the reality of what’s going on, no escape from the hate that resides in my mind, no liquid, no pill, no plant, no substance that could prevent me from knowing the TRUTH A lesson I learned very late but one must trust the teacher brave enough to venture to the dark side long enough to share the light, She did that for me and I took it for granted, her skies became of the darkest amidst her life while trying to help me help myself survive, She wasn’t just a loved one but most definitely the “Love Of My Life” Her presence created change that never ever would’ve been resurrected A lifeless lifetime victim was the path that I was traveling Her love stopped my destiny DEAD IN IT’S TRACKS Dead our relationship became That was the final blow that it took, for me to look in the mirror and realize it was ME and not HER We’re separated now PHYSICALLY But never were we MENTALLY Ups and downs Higher than NASA has been and lower than the equator We’ve been through them all Seconds seemed like years since we have been apart Years seemed like milliseconds when she was in my arms I know how to change that now We desire to be together now With many undetermined pieces to an eternal puzzle of happiness, we just have a couple more variables to figure out ( light at the end of the tunnel) It wasn’t until I became independent that I could cherish what it means to be dependent Independency should never not be an option and dependency should never be a necessity When the insecurities were addressed, dissected, studied and let go of.... FADED Is when it became apparent the lessons she created that I so hated then but now know the love that would be granted from the POWER OF GROWTH The result : a better man the result : a better father the result: a better son the result: a rekindled love the result: the return of my love INDEPENDENCE isn’t just about being free from others hands but also being free from yourself as well We can be our own worse enemy, we can be our own culprit and we can make ourselves victims OR We can be our own best friend, we can be honest with ourselves and we can create CHANGE