I don't know for how long have I been a melancholy song it's been years I've been with my fears swimming in my tears only to wet my pillow every night losing my light giving up the fight I hate myself like a book on a shelf that's read by none because it's no fun I am the weird one I try to stop my cry be a bit stronger hold up a little longer but I always fail leaving behind a trail of weakness and vices of these unending compromises I **** myself everyday by keeping words that I should say by following rules that none should lay I suffocate I choke and all they think is that this is another joke I say I'm okay but I'm not I say I'm okay but I'm caught in the middle of this chaos in end of another phase but this time I don't see a reason for me to chase I feel ***** I feel guilty I feel so much yet nothing at all no reason to rise after this fall no reason to rise after this fall.
I can't fight this. I can't seek help. I can't die. I can't say goodbye. I don't really know what to do. I see nothing.
I apologise for making you all read this. I really am sorry.