I'm living under the influence
Not drugs
No major addictions
But I'm still drugged and addicted
To peace
Calm
Quiet
It's hard to be empathetic
Without sad feelings myself
Not that I WANT sad feelings
But
I don't really want to be
At peace.
It's nice
But I'll end up hurting someone
If I don't think sadness is necessary.
I'm not sure where to stand
Because it always seems to be one or the other.