I am too broken to love
Shattered to my core
Haunted by the pieces
Of all I had before

I want to forget the past
So I can be birthed anew
And emerge a stronger person
Than the girl I was with you

Had a dainty personality
To match my petite figure
Fragile as flower petals
Too easy to disfigure

Built on the ruins of yesterday
A castle constructed from skin
Thank heavens it's outside appearance
Doesn't match the mayhem within

I inhabit a remote island
Stranded in the middle of my mind
Somewhere so deep in my conciousness
I am impossible to find

The center of my body
Has been drained of light and heat
So much warmth has been used up
I have no energy left to deplete

At my gates a warning is carved
Words wearily written in stone
"Caution ye who enter here
Cursed if not left alone"

Anything to stop curious eyes
From peeking where they may
Access always denied to outsiders
It's safer for everyone that way

The little sliver of hope I retain
Is threatened by storming skies
Any goodness still blooming decays
Faith wilts and silently dies

A tiny part of me is relieved
I now have no sadness to fear
I don't have to be afraid of agony
Because the pain is already here

It isn't fair to future suitors
To fail before getting a chance
But after one too many heartbreaks
I've completely sworn off romance

It is best to stay behind these walls
I keep my loyalty on an unreachable shelf
How can I be expected to care for another
When I can't take care of myself?

Below the surface I yearn for connection
For a touch that will allow me to feel
But vulnerability must remain hidden
So all weakness I continue to conceal

I think I have shed so many **** tears
My saltwater well has run dry
The silver lining of which is that woes
No longer have power to make me cry

Any time I sense attraction nearby
I flee far as fast as I can
Yet I can't seem to escape it's pursuit
Regardless of miles ran

I am exhausted from avoiding
Opportunities for adoration
But continue to do so at all costs
Cause all relationships have an expiration

I don't know who I am anymore
Missing too much of my soul
Lost portions of self as I went along
Now I can never be whole