He observed so much and saw through everyone's act. They'd drain his energy with their bad vibes overthinking being quiet. He gets he didn't have to share because they showed no interest, his life wasn't important. He was an open book they kept closing it and setting it aside. They latched on to the problems they caused making them seem important when all it did was burden them.
He lost a lot over time, he failed but kept trying. Fell hard able bounced back from all the insanity.