words are boring me lately. every story I read seems to be baiting me to jump. the ledges I write remind me that flying is falling. dry ink is apalling; chalk outlines look like milk in the rain; falling isnt flying at all. I have to remind myself of that. I'm selfish. I'm selfish. my shelves sit full. it all ends. both sides. no flying. no falling. I'm falling. I'm lying. I wouldnt call me either.