you looked surprised              
and frustrated              
then dad made a comment like
"see she can laugh"          
and you growled for me to go to bed              
(10:57pm) i wouldn't sleep anyway                                              
what you didn't see
was by the time
you couldn't see my face        
tears had began to
trickle down my cheeks
faster and faster
until i lay down
and let them all
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