I have spent too much of my time hoping you will grow up
My entire world held at bottom of a half-empty cup
Tug of war between what I know in my head and what I feel in my heart
Between the two equal matches I am torn so violently apart
Darkness and the secrets kept creep up in my clinging skin
Making it clear you are not the same man as when we saw this begin
Both have been in denial about how bad our problems are
My teachers are your hurtful words
Every tear
And scar
Repeating my lesson so many times it's insane
So that I grow but I never learn from the pain
May I grasp eventually what life is attempting to teach?
In this cruel world that knowledge is only out of reach