Smiles hidden behind miles of printed cloth weddings and the Christmas we called off people we loved and held dear everlasting warnings have led to national mourningΒ Β for things that have gone and cannot be replaced and we have chased the rainbows that appeared on every window, every door what was that for to make us feel one for all, all for one until we could look up and find the sun in its proper place once again and dodge the pain of the mental rain which has been falling washing out dreams and churning them to soggy dust most of all we have lost our trust that sense that everything will all be ok has upped and melted away chopped down, chipped up like the limbs of a tree and with it our sense of certainty the shock is profound because we have found that we stand on much shakier ground than anyone thought it could possibly be