i’ve seen every little fragmented shard of your soul every twinkling fairy light every aching bruise i’ve lifted every flap and gazed through every hotel door peekhole searched under every rug and felt the bottom of every drawer reached under the bed and the dark spaces between the couch cushions i’ve coaxed out every skittish secret and laid them all out in the yard
i sorted them into piles: keep, consider, throw away i decided the same way you collect sea glass at the shore some choices were smooth and certain they had wave caressed edges you can run the pads of your fingers over and the sunlight filtered through, green and foggy and calm some decisions needed thought and careful hands wondering if the edges were still yet too fresh and eager to slice only half formed and not quite ready to be parted from the gentle lull of the sea the rest were bottles being shattered as i considered them still tainted with the overflowing emotion that splintered the glass these pieces i picked up, and tossed into the sea whistling through the air and landing with hardly a splash disappearing far too innocently sinking oh so sweetly
one day those shards will come tumbling back up your shores of thought i will pick them up once more and toss them back over and over and over and over again until they’re butter soft and your skin no longer breaks at contact
this is how i will learn to love every atom of my self all of my silk and sandpaper pieces until all the secret notes stuffed into the bottles of my being are love letters to myself and the broken glass glittering along the beach shines like stars