So very young and so in love, the first love that you never forget. You went somewhere (I had no idea where)and I went to Alaska and then I went to war and the years began to fade the memories, erasing lines of dialogue, making vague the dates and the places...
...my lips and skin still remember, my hands will still know all the contours...
...and clearly feel the touch of you.
We both had a dream of love. We looked for it in the hidden places of the future, in the secret places of our hearts.
Fifty years later you found me and I can't help but think that you may have never been mine, but I was yours and I still all these years later go to bed every night wondering how it would feel to have you here with me. True intimacy happens when nothing is perfect.
You are many miles away, married, living in your castle,and I can't help but feel you are scared to meet me again after so many years even though you made the effort to find me, contact me and let me know that your heart was still heavy with thoughts of me after so many years apart. Jon York 2021