I miss you.
I miss those soft blue eyes,
And that startlingly blonde hair,
And your jokes.

I miss the way your voice would lilt
Whenever you asked a question,
Or the way you would immediately go calm
And just ask me to hold your hand when I was upset.

I miss the fact that I can no longer just go up to you,
And pretend like my day has been okay,
Just so I could see your smile.

I miss that smile.
I miss when that smile was mine,
When I could make it happen with just three little words.

But you never actually meant it whenever you said it,
Those three little words never actually meant anything,
Even if you thought they did.

I know they didn’t.
Because you simply cannot just move on
So quickly, because you just can’t
Have that time with someone all of a sudden mean nothing like that,
If you actually loved them.

Kid, as much as I miss you,
You are not the man I need.
You are just a boy.