You say my scars are beautiful
Never specify which ones
But we both know you mean the ones when I wanted to die

You say you understand my pain
And that it’ll all be okay
But everyday is harder to stay

Waking up is like climbing a mountain
DONT get me started on school
Yes I get I seem lazy
But I have no motivation

You can yell and scream
Doesn’t change the feeling
Either way I just want sleep
I sleep all day and I’m still tired
My life is in dismay

But you say it’ll be okay

Hot tears running down my cheeks
Puffed up eyes, makeup stained sheets
But of course I’m fine

The same three songs all on repeat
Oh I’m fine, nothing bad I say
But I don’t want to stay

So I say; goodbye my friends, what a bitter end
I just wanted to rest
Goodbye to those who I hated the most
You made me who I am

when I sing this I don’t wanna die
I just want to sleep another wink and not cry
I’m not going anywhere , just going to rest
DONT you fret I’ll be back in 10-20 minutes