for every time
i've been tempted to            
                    grab a blade
and pierce my
skin                                  
            instead
i pick up a pen        
and draw or write            
                 a word or two
                 on my
skin                                  

                                                                i know you don't know the exact
                                                                 reason for me writing on my skin
                                                            yet i feel like you should know
                                                              that every time you growl at me
                                                                   for writing or drawing on my skin
                                                     and you tell me not to do it
                                    you're hurting me
you're telling me not to help myself                              
which is what i was doing                                              

i'm trying to help myself