There was one time I took too many pills and spent the morning curled up in the shower unable to move except for spewing waste all over the communal tile. I thought I was going to die.
I laid in bed and considered calling myself an ambulance but was embarrassed at the thought of my quivering, naked body lugged onto a stretcher and carted down my dorm hall. So I waited around to die.
But I didn't die. Instead, I made an empty promise to never make the same mistake again. I don't know who I was making my promise to. Maybe God. Maybe my little sister. Maybe myself.
this is a kind of different style of writing that I'm trying out so don't judge too hard if it sounds bad.