The lavender surrounds me that my head will lull into and my eyes will open aware it disappeared and so you fade like the aged oak that once carried me in its' arms that lived on 409 and the desire to cross that street one more time
Ed and his wife are likely no longer with us but I wonder what it's like to not have to make the effort to have a home seek you out and want you to still be in its' life but I wonder if I stand here, next to that stop sign where I caught up to it in size
find a piece of you that remains in this world I can feel the softness of your palm that never was I almost know what it feels like to belong someone's love to pour over me and not feel greedy or ashamed for needing it so badly
I ache to be held to be touched A moment of tenderness, touch of my shoulder blade. dad's warmth for me died when you did I wonder if it is selfish to inquire, that you come home your spirit can live in my heart possess me like you want me as if being my mother was a privilege
Dad told everyone at my graduation party, I was unplanned and that lavender where he and I felt it in our hands, he put a bushel in my hair pushes me away in the home of my own mind.
It whispers, it tries to tickle my arm but it tricks me and admits what my own parents, alive and dead refuse to do.
Resentment has always made its home in my arms, like warm candlelight caressing my face as I give life to the wick It always stings, as your palms did or not knowing ******* the things inside of you that made you want to die