I try to remember all of it. I try. I try, but most of it doesn't make sense. I try harder. I try to think about what I did wrong. I try other things, other angles. I try not to give up. Because I know that if I do, I'll lose my meaning. "You.. are my quest." We used to say. But at some point we lost our way. I think about it every single day. And now there's no other way than to try. I try.