I feel fear creeping on me
When the lights go out
And my eyes close
My thoughts go buzzing
The kind I don’t wanna think
It’s tough when I close my eyes
I just want to rest and be at peace
But the fear and doubt comes back again
I use the blade and pour out my pain
I feel the tears come again
Curse myself for not controlling myself
I tell my depression to leave me
But I hear the voices in my head and I hear laughter
They say I’ll never be anything
Should just listen and **** myself
But I won't listen I refuse to listen