shoes tap and kick softly to an undetectable melody
the slightest sensations seem to be overwhelming
a moving hair,
a twinge of numbness,
ah, there’s the familiar *****.
looking down to my hands, the bud blooms
and cascades down my thumb.
it's revolting..
..but i can't stop
the obsession that plagues my life
someday i fear it will be too controlling
and that i will succumb to its demands,
but for now, i’ll just watch
too scared to reach out,
too scared of change.