Many times, when the pain of my heart would overflow Someone would press a gun into my hand And shove it against my temple. I struggled with it and wrestled with it, tearing the cold barrel Away from my skin.
But instead the specter turned its scythe Upon my grandmother It would not cut her, only struck her blood That she would bleed under her skin And she bruised as if beaten
I wept by her bedside and grasped her hands Soft like paper And prayed that she might live to see me love and laugh again And she rose from her sick bed With her mind ever sharp, and her heart ever soft
Then the specter came for me On leathery wings With talons of protein Injecting its DNA into me To crown me its agent of pestilence But I had enough of death and death-threats
I swore that I would live I swore that I would beat it I ripped the crown off my head And beat it into the dust.