You know the old expression
"You don't know what you've got 'til it's gone"?

Well, it is certainly true:

I didn't realize how much I loved my Father
until I found him dead.
I didn't realize how much I appreciated my Lover
until I found myself single.
I didn't realize how much I wanted to sleep
until I had to be at work.
I don't realize how ignorant I am
until I take a step back from myself.
I didn't realize how much I want to live while I can
until I seriously thought about death at my own hand.
--
The moral of the story
is to appreciate the here and now.
Even if it could be better, perhaps especially even then,
try to remind yourself of what you already have to lose
and what it would be like for the others around you
if they were to lose you
and what it would be like for you
if you were to lose them:

Respect the things you love.
Respect everything.
Respect yourself.

Do not squander your time;
it is good to take your time,
but seek the balance.

Take it from me:
you truly cannot know
what you may lose tomorrow,
so please enjoy what you have
right here and now.

If you don't,
you may well lose it.

Eventually,
everything is lost to the void;
but in the meantime,
celebrate that it is here;
celebrate that you are here.
For now.