In fleeting flicks of fervent flutters,
Unbanished feelings freely sway
Formed from limerent, flippant shudders

A force that'***** me like no other,
Calls the light I beg away
What room have I, in heart, for flutters?

"Leave me to my sighs and mutters..."
I hear my frigid heart relay,
Too fragile for these wild shudders

Brought to burning, stammering stutters
Nervous thoughts, frost-brought, decay
In pacing, panicked, manic flutters

This old and weary heart will utter
A word of warning ere I stay
Recompense for past love's shudders

Do I exaggerate these flutters?
Formed from limerent, hopeful shudders?

How wonderful it must be

To never feel pain...

Whispered words like a silent storm,

She cast my heart to the depths of the ocean

With rage,

I envy her careless motions  

Her defining tragedy

Is the symptom and cardinal restriction

Of my seething, scarred antipathy

For I can only wish on her

That most necessary of torments,

The loss of deepest affection

But true love occurs in the presence

Of humbling sacrifice

True loss happens only

When one cannot bear to love another

Less than one loves one's self

The heart bleeds for the light that pierces

None could reach her blackest night

Where is the dirge for my stolen confessions?

For the price to bear her loveless wrath?

Hours whittled on and on,

sharing

kissing

holding

talking

hearing

knowing

I want them back!

Is justice dead?

Hatred she deserves,

Salvation she evades

The pain I know would set her free,

Could never find a way inside her

Heartbreak and loss she, both, requires

To know the evil of her ways

A heart that only values self

Could never break beneath that weight

And so

I wait

I long to hear her say

“I'm sorry...”

Even if it takes forever

Even if she'll never know

What it's like to feel my pain

Still, I'll wait

I've followed fools and said farewells,
Been lead to where I've said too much
Seen silence drawn from words I've said-
I've said "Too much is not enough..."
I'll bathe in every light you send me,
Say you wont believe my lies
So long as sadness always rears its head like
Shadows dancing in our eyes

Make me a part of every
Memory
Say the word, I'll be right here
Give me a piece of every
Fantasy
Don't be selfish, learn to share
C'mon, let's do this,
I'm ******* there!

Learned to fly from daydreams always dragging
Me away from Earth
In terra firma found the roots that tangle
In the furnace of rebirth
And though I've only just become
A chapter in your story
I'll follow every line that leads to where
We share our morning glory

Make me a part of every
Memory
Say the word, I'll be right here
Give me a piece of every
Fantasy
Don't be selfish, learn to share
C'mon, let's do this,
I'm ******* there!

I wanna be there for all the
dark-and-light years
Let's make 'em all those
thoughtfully-high-at-night years
And when I say I love myself at last,
You know I mean I love you too
Because I honor the light inside of me
That burns twice as bright inside of you

Make me a part of every
Memory
Say the word, I'll be right here
Give me a piece of every
Fantasy
Don't be selfish, learn to share
C'mon, let's do this,
I'm ******* there!

Our maiden voyage, don't be scared,
Trust your spirit, I'm always there.

Like the blossoms born
in springtime fervor
passing in transient haste
Like the will-o'-wisps dance
on the moors of surrender
I'm lost in the fogs of the past

With a yearning that calls
to the flame sprung from summer
I struggle to banish the frost
But the cold wind that blows
from the fields of forever
Tells me I'm already lost

Shadows, calling
Remind me of how to survive
Memories, guide me,
Beckon to days far away
Fire inside me
Rise from the ashes again
Love so near me
Redeem this lost ghost in the fog

Love was my drug of choice
It doesn't help I have
an addictive personality
But we all have our vices
Cigarettes,
They can be trusted
A little pleasure,
A little pain,
They'll **** you in the end
But it's all part of the contract
You'll sell your body
For peace of mind
A lover is not so courteous
You'll sell your soul,
For what?
At least the cigs are honest
Easier to replace,
Quicker to be rid of
No delusions of permanence,
No false promise of forever
Just a little pleasure,
And a little pain

Today, I fell from the sky
And mourned my tattered wings
I screamed in hopes the stars would hear
I cursed the earth that broke my fall
As I watched you fly away,
I wished for heaven to burn

In the fields of asphodel,
I lay
In a dream you left behind,
I watched the rain pour out
In silence,
I cried

My tears were falling to the ground
and froze my fevered pleas
through the valley of forever,
a shimmering wind escaped the trees
the roars from shores we'd seen before
gave power to their whisper
the lips of god formed air to song,
silencing my foolish whimper
all beauty we had found in life
was still stretched out before me
all grace I found inside your eyes
was branded deep within me

In the fields of asphodel,
I lay
In the dreams of days to come,
I felt the radiant dawn
Beneath new horizons,
I try

Today, the fields you left behind
nurture every dream unseen
today, the clouds reveal the sun
and greet the golden dawn
Today, I'm blessed by thunder's call,
Today, the storm left me with more

Today, I fell from the sky,
but I still have my wings
Rain is falling gently now
On the fields of asphodel,
Where we shared our kiss
The flowers smile,
so I will mourn no longer
After all,
They look so lovely
Today.