Hello me, I think we might be in trouble
Here.
Part of me is frightened, part of me has no
Fear.
I’m trying to see myself but I can't see
Clear.
Sometimes I wonder who’s that staring
Back at me in the mirror.
A nonstop battle with myself inside.
A raging war from which I can not hide.
Questioning and worrying about my own
Trivial insecurities.
A rattling of the gears and chains inside

How can I live up to your expectations
When I can't live up to my own?
I only hope I will see the perseverance I
Have shown.
I’ll keep winning by the skin of my teeth,
Grabbing with my claws.
What I wouldn't give, to eliminate my
Flaws.

It took me so long to be open
and honest with myself.  
I was hoping it would free me from my
Mental prison cell.
I'm trying my damndest to like who I've become.
Thinking of the battles I’ve already won.
If I only focus on the past that I hate so much,
I’ll never have the future I want to love
My judgment of myself is raining hell
From above.
No self-pride here, just judgment and
Shame keeping me from being my best.’
I’ve got no time for second place, you want me
To beat the rest.

How do you expect me to live up to your expectations
when I can't live up to my own?
I only hope you’ll see the perseverance I
Have shown.

I’ve tried so **** hard to be the girl you
Want me to be.
But my constant worrying will never set me free
I try still as every day goes by to be
A better version of me
For you.