The dissipated heat of evening air seeks reprieve in snaking tendrils of gated iron. A silent, prolific expanse beyond which I can see: the memories unfurling, my future beckoning.
Stolen fleeting glances back as I open the gate latch; it is in this moment now that everything becomes undone. A reclusive part of myself has long been consumed and condemned— fighting tooth and nail in a life intertwined with hell, leaving me to grapple with fears all alone.
One shaky step forward, then two. I break into a delirious run. The feel of solid concrete, the revitalising wind without a care— a path from a place I no longer call home. I yearn for freedom, I hunger to feel something other than abusive regrets, they beget perennial laughter, giving way to countless tears, the hurt and the lies.
So it’s beyond that front gate where I promise to find a rekindled self, a new state of mind, as shadows cast behind me in the slanting sun, my face upturned to receive the light. All the suffering and tumultuous pain now shed like old skin, and a new set of wings unfold to soar the skies again. My most beautiful self reflected by the deepest shards of my being: in it lies a bruised but wondrous heart— wide open, ready for some healing.
It's been a long, long time since posting here. I wrote this a while back. It's still bittersweet.