One shot for the years alone
Another for the panic
A shot for hope gained and lost
And one for my illness

While we’re at it
Take one for the boy you wanted
The one who kissed you
Then have a few more
For him deciding he doesn’t want you

******* drown it
I don’t want to think
Don’t feel
Just lie down and let the room swirl
And maybe it won’t all hurt so much...