she was a vigilant child ignoring the thoughts of fantasy she lived without joy and dreams she knew there was no such thing as eternity her mother was ignorant overcome by a dreaming abyss it was a false ecstasy blinded by bliss she was careful to avoid making stupid mistakes hope was the enemy false dreams were sure to devastate to keep herself safe she was careful not to trust her heart had a shell and she let the lock rust she never let her guard down she was immune to things like love joy and dreams and happiness those things she was above her infatuation was a treasure covered in dust immune to sweetness she did what she must to block all emotion avoid all fears she grew up when she was young she shed no tears