Stuck in time with a frozen heart, feeling lost during this lonely new start.

All these years that I left to waste, they still linger that dreadful taste.

With so many questions left without answer, it seems like this is the mental form of stage 4 cancer.

I wonder why these days have to feel so cold, it's the hottest time of the year as I watch myself grow old.

Not knowing how to find the strength to move on, when this whole time I didn't realize I was already gone.

Where do I find meaning in this life, when everything I believed in cut me down like a knife.

I didn't even know I was living in the wrong, now I'm left with this pain inside that I've held on to for so long.

But I can't just let it go by my own free will, what is the answer to once again feel like I'm real?

They say time is what it takes to finally heal, but this cancer inside will only tries to ****.

As these days drag on and times get worse, I wish I could go back and do things in reverse.

Remembering the day it all went away, when I chose this path that lead me astray.

I know it's a long road that I have ahead, even as I lay here writing in my bed.

Wanting to escape these feelings that are all stiuck in my head, maybe they won't leave till the day I am dead.