I believe in you
I believe that you sent your one and only son
that I am saved

I pray hard
I pray that you will give me the wisdom of Solomon and the bravery of David
I ask you to give me the faith of Moses but not the sly and wicked like Judas
I wish that you would wash me in Jesus' blood every day and renew me

but why?
Why do you make every hardship resurface right after another problem is disintegrated
I don't ask for much
only provide your love and grace for me
Every time I walk forward in  my life's journey, big boulder tumbles down in front of me
You replace another burden after I release one in front of the cross
My vision is clouded and I cannot hear

Please Lord
I only ask you for mercy
that you would give me time to breathe

but reality hits me hard
time is over with full of my mistakes
Life is that short
but I want to thank you for not listening
for giving me hard walls to climb over
for giving me loss and filling me with sadness
thank you
I could learn from you
I grew stronger
my heart became stronger
and I became more like you
I wasn't desperate for you in certain situations because you taught me your ways
I love you Lord and I am forever grateful for what you have done to my life
Now I could just live peacefully with you eternally

Amen