I told you I was alone.  you thought I meant lonely.  so I left you.  
to figure me out.  but you didn’t.  really care.  that much.

so we were even.

she said I want to live inside you.  in a way that made it clear.  
she was jealous of my home.

I do not sleep.  without help.  the help.  makes me.  dream.  so I am.

entering dreams.  that hide their truths.  and I cannot question them.  when I am in them.  

one night.  I dreamed of struggling.  
against something.  then.  in the same dream.

I dreamed of peeing.  waking up.  thinking I wet.  my bed.

I did not.