i dream of bashing your head into a wall
into every wall, actually
of every room

i bang my head
into my headboard instead
i wish i could unzip this body
and crawl out
i wish i could peel off this body
and crawl out

if feelings were stones
i'd be full of rocks
i'd weigh so much
i'd fall through the floor
my heart just a boulder in my chest
all i do
is sink down

i dream of your skull shattered apart
like a marble statue
in pieces
you used to be so pretty
i could look past the monstrosity inside

if feelings hardened up like marbles
and rolled through you like blood
i'd become a surgeon
i'd take a knife and open myself up
dig them out
like tumors
i'd dig out all the love
i still feel for you
the brick of missing you
cut it out
every memory of you like grains of sand
sprinkled through my mind
dig them out
as blood and gory as it'd get
i wouldn't stop
till every bit of you was gone
till nothing was left
i'd rather be hollow
and empty
than filled with this

filled with you

you're like cancer
all you do is **** me

cut you out

pray to a god i don't believe in
to help me forget
erase every scar
leave no reminder
i hope you
disappear

till then i dream of you
broken in pieces
ripped limb from limb
chest cracked open down the middle
how does it feel, baby
to hurt like i do