Do you see yourself As something worth fighting for? I don’t know why I’m okay With choosing the path of least resistance When the path leads me to people Who diminish my existence, And I let them I let them shrink me till I’m small enough for them to stomach And I don’t protest when I’m eaten alive Because I’ve already been eaten up inside By the idea that being small Is better than not being loved at all Maybe that’s not the right way to think But that’s the cup I’ve been drinking from Since I was smaller in stature and larger in heart Until those thoughts tore me apart. I’m consumed not just by them but by ideas That tell me that others being able to stand me Is better than standing for myself- And it’s better than asking for help. They might say it’s better to stand alone But they don’t tell you how lonely it gets When the people that should be standing with you Have left you alone in the spotlight and you’re burning Standing in the midst of people’s glares while the ones that loved you continue to stare and you realize- They were never there. How can I stand for myself when these thoughts, They keep tripping me up? I wish I could drink from a different cup. I’m drowning in your opinions of me and who you want me to be- And who I am. Who am I? I don’t seem to know, because I’ve taken pieces of you Stuck them to me with the strongest glue Take those pieces away, and what will I be? Will there be anything left of me? These are the things I think in the night When dead thoughts rise again to haunt me. Who could I be? Will I ever know me? I’ve gotten lost on the path of least resistance And I’ve taken your hand at your insistence And you lead me further into the dark, Until I can’t tell where you end and I begin How can I win?