Mar 2020
A sharp pain fills my chest, taken aback i decide to lay down within the bed of flowers and tall grass, as the blades brush against my face and the flowers encircle my body a chilled breeze flows through me, my eyes gaze towards the sky, my view filled with groups of clouds and blue skies far beyond me as well as the beauty that lies within the abstract shapes of mist above.
“Where am i?”
All that fills my mind is calmness, no worries nor sorrow fills my heart anymore. I cannot remember what brought me here. The sounds of distant waves crashing against the seawall floods my thoughts and distract me from whatever had filled it before. I feel at peace with myself, nothing seems to worry me any longer, the breeze continues to blow the surrounding flora in a soothing manner across my arms and face, the armor strapped to my body is uncomfortable.
“How did I get here?”
My hand reaches across my chest to the clip that binds the leather strap to the plate and disconnects the two from each other, and in sequence removes the plate from around my chest and back in one steady motion over my head, now without the obstacle I may rest without discomfort, my linen shirt doesn't do justice to my skin either, it may come off too. The crushed grass and mounded dirt from where my armor had rested made for a comfortable spot for my muscles to relax upon.
“Does that really matter?”
I sit up, and view all around me, nothing but grass and beautiful orange lilies surround me, not a single thing of importance in sight, just me and these flowers, it all just is, nothing in front of me, and nothing behind, I lay back onto the land below me and close my eyes for a little bit, it's all better now I tell myself, everything is okay now.
“I feel like I'm missing something.”
A feeling of pure content flushes through my body, every vein and muscle fibre feels a sense of bliss, whatever had bothered me before is not worth worrying about anymore, nothing can bother me, miles of grassland and cool air surrounds me, just calm, no one can hurt me anymore, I am here and here am I within this sea of green and blue my heart may finally rest, whatever was before, no longer is, no question need be answered, and all is finished.
“That’s okay. I’m okay.”
“Where am i?”
All that fills my mind is calmness, no worries nor sorrow fills my heart anymore. I cannot remember what brought me here. The sounds of distant waves crashing against the seawall floods my thoughts and distract me from whatever had filled it before. I feel at peace with myself, nothing seems to worry me any longer, the breeze continues to blow the surrounding flora in a soothing manner across my arms and face, the armor strapped to my body is uncomfortable.
“How did I get here?”
My hand reaches across my chest to the clip that binds the leather strap to the plate and disconnects the two from each other, and in sequence removes the plate from around my chest and back in one steady motion over my head, now without the obstacle I may rest without discomfort, my linen shirt doesn't do justice to my skin either, it may come off too. The crushed grass and mounded dirt from where my armor had rested made for a comfortable spot for my muscles to relax upon.
“Does that really matter?”
I sit up, and view all around me, nothing but grass and beautiful orange lilies surround me, not a single thing of importance in sight, just me and these flowers, it all just is, nothing in front of me, and nothing behind, I lay back onto the land below me and close my eyes for a little bit, it's all better now I tell myself, everything is okay now.
“I feel like I'm missing something.”
A feeling of pure content flushes through my body, every vein and muscle fibre feels a sense of bliss, whatever had bothered me before is not worth worrying about anymore, nothing can bother me, miles of grassland and cool air surrounds me, just calm, no one can hurt me anymore, I am here and here am I within this sea of green and blue my heart may finally rest, whatever was before, no longer is, no question need be answered, and all is finished.
“That’s okay. I’m okay.”
