How am i gonna stay the same?
The circumstances have changed
I just self pity on my only mistake
I need an eternal break from the
Mayhem i create
In the bright sunny days i try hard to escape from my ugly, dark phase,
And this struggle inflict an endless ache,
How am i gonna stay the same?
My perception of myself has changed,
I reside and get lost in the wrinkle of pain,
And sometimes get zoned out in the crowd full of menace,
In my vengeful eyes the uncleared sight  
Of my dusty- rusty life,
My intention changed and my brain is drained
Of the good old thoughts,
How am i gonna stay the same?
Everyday i try not to live a sinful life
full of  skirmish, carnage and havoc,
People try to boast and swank of their
dirt and land,
And i give a smile and look at my red right hand.