it's been thirteen years since the first time i ever considered holding onto that hollow feeling in my stomach instead of holding you and i still admire the way my ribs peek out between hyperventilation pulses whenever i see someone that resembles your face when faced with how it felt to swallow your lies, even now, i'd rather be empty
01/27/2020. caught a glimpse of who i used to be in the mirror and had to bring her back for a second; hello, i've missed you