I refuse to cry, Because i don't want you to be the cause of my pain. Because if i do, my tear ducts might go dry, and put the rain to shame. Because i don't want you to be the reason for my sadness. Because you definitely don't deserve that. you were the most cheerful person ive ever met, surrounded by an aura of happiness. I don't want you to be so great and still break my heart. Because i don't want you to bring me tears. Because i don't want to believe you're not going to play your part. Because i don't want to believe you're really not here. I don't want to cry because you never let me do it before. I don't want to cry because it would mean you're not here anymore. I refuse to cry because that's the opposite of what you'd want me to do. But i still do cry, because i never realized what i had, because its true... That i took you for granted and before i knew, Without a warning you've gone, without a goodbye... I guess i deserved that, you left leaving me here to cry. But i'll battle my tears, for you i will try. Since even though you've gone, you still left me a present like you always used to... the beautiful memories once a part of my life, i'll always hold onto. I refuse to cry. But even as i say those words, i cant help the tear which escapes my eye.