She is the shadow of her shadow; A hard green tomato on an October vine; Like last year's silver tree tinsel; The inescapable smell of a house housing cats; A smoker's car; An arthritic leaf, twisting in early December; The runny nose of someone's toddler; An empty gurney in a hospice hallway; Or the last dark spike impaling dawn. Hanging on and hanging in. Not knowing. Not going. Still here.