There aren't many days in which your presence couldn't improve the quality but some days I can feel your absence
As we sit around the dinner table and talk about our days I yearn to hear how yours was
While we smoke by the fire it feels as though we are missing something
There are moments that are so deafeningly silent that they scream your name
It's as though we still expect to hear your voice fill in the pauses in conversation
It is always the little moments the casual gatherings beer in hand
those are the moments that you live for and taught me to appreciate
There are moments when I miss you intensely, when I wish you could be a part of everything going on. I love everything that you add to a group, and our house isn't the same without it. But I don't miss you because I feel like I need you, which is honestly the most healthy thing I have ever felt. In the past I hated being far from the person I was dating and I would wake up and go to sleep every day wishing I was with them and feeling incomplete without them. With you, I would absolutely choose together over apart because I enjoy you but I don't need you. I am loving where we are, having the distance and learning how to take care of myself is crucial now. I like my routine and time alone and it has been a long time since I have had that. And then I can be really excited when I get to spend a few days with you every couple weeks.