We were great together close to perfect.
But back then i didn't deserve you, I do now but you with him so my past is trying to reflect.
Trying to drag me down to my old ways.
Replaying memories of those old days.
All those thoughts just lead me back to you.
I'm still trying to grasp how fast everything we had went to fade.
Sure for now I'll take the "L."
Somewhere down the road I'll take the win even if it has to be my last will.
Whether I get you back or I don't.
I'm barely afloat.
This depression is wrappin' around me so this fake smile I'm wearin' fits as good a coat.
Now I'm at the point I'm done with tryin'.
I'm lovin' you but Im hatin' you so Im cryin'.
It's been over a year tryna get you back or replace you.
Some just like you but not the same outer case as you.
Inside you is what I'm talkin' bout.
I loved your outside too but searchin' for a girl like you causin' me to live in a drought.
I know with out a doubt.
That I'm done fightin' with my heart and my mind.
Angle on my left shoulder wit' the Demon on the right.
Tellin' me not to give up fightin' for you but also tellin' me to forget about you but 11 months ago I couldn't decide on which side.
But now I can.
Ima stand.
No not for you.
Worry bout me and who I wanna be.
You can't drive me insane anymore.
My brain you can't claim anymore.
Get the **** up outta my head.
So bad I wish I was dead.
Im ******' fed up.
These thoughts ******' wit' me reminding me how much you were of a set up.
Get out my head.
With all the ******* you said.
Just wanna go to bed.
*******.
You wasted my time.
The way I see it wit' how much I loved you was a ******' crime.
I got my eyes set on someone else.
I got my bets on someone else.
****.
I've known her longer than I've known you.
Be with her is what I wanna do.
So **** the "L" I was takin.
And all the **** you were sayin'.
The line you have crossed.
The **** was barely even a loss.
I got the win now.
I won't sin now.
I am no longer a joke