I know of pain and suffering; Mistakes and consequences
It wasn't always this gloomy.
Once I was cheerful and bright.
It all changed.
My heart became as dark as night
I hid behind my walls; behind my fake smiles
You said it was alright, that I was okay
If you only looked deeper, you'd see my agony
You'd feel my depression.
I grew tired of life with each passing day.
When it began,
I looked on with disdain at her,
I cringed at the mere thought.
But she became more beautiful or so it seemed
Her promise of a better world, a better life;
I eagerly wanted that.


Slowly I fell into her trap:
She beckoned to me, I answered.
I cut off communication,
Life was bearable in my head.
"I didn't need the world" she told me.
"There's no other way out" she said.
She understood me; shared my problems.
She said no one else could help me.
She was right.
She said I was in darkness.
Yes! I needed the light.
She was waiting for me to accept her; give her my all.
I loved her; I needed to show just how much.
"A little show of affection" she said.
"Just a couple pills" she cooed.
I did all she asked; I proved my love.
I left this world to be with her;
I gave in to Suicide...