I wish I was someone else
Less damaged, more composed
I wish I was all consuming
Head turning, inspiring prose

I know what I really am
Walls up, too hard to climb
I know what I have to offer
Probably not worth your time

I put on the face of indifference
Less chance to be hurt that way
I put on a smile to hide the pain
The truth will just scare you away

I hate what I see in the mirror
And I can’t seem to let that go
I hate what I feel when I’m lonely
Though I try to put on the show

I wish I had what the others have
Maybe things wouldn’t be so hard
I wish I had made different choices
So my soul didn’t bear these scars

I will never be the girl of your dreams
I’m made up of nightmares and fear
I will never be all that you wanted
Please don’t bother,
                     just move on my dear.