I hide everything from everyone
Because I'm Afraid.

I'm afraid of what people would say.
What would they say if they could see
The red lines gracing my skin.
What would they say if they could see The bruises on my stomach that cannot be explained away.
What would they say if they could see
The tears in my eyes when i said i was fine.

Im afraid of what people would do.
What would they do if they knew that
I screamed at myself because i
Walked too close to the kitchen.
What would they do if they knew that I hit myself in the head repeatedly because the thoughts are too loud.
What would they do if they knew that
When i smile, it's so i don't cry.

As a result of my fear
I've grown increasingly good at lying.
The facáde i've build is impressive
For there are barely any cracks.

All this, because i don't want
The people i hold dearest and closest
To leave me.
I don't want to be alone.

I Am Afraid.