I am so sick of being that girl The one who sits awkwardly Tries not to show too much on my face But here I am I watch all around as people Stare Judge each other And it isn’t even me that I am tearing the roots out of my faith in humanity over
I watch And I listen And all I perceive is laughter “Oh my gosh that was totes hilarious” No. It wasn’t. Those people you laugh at… People of Wal-Mart That crazy chick The person at the end of all of your jokes Harmless as they seem Those people are people too They have people who love them Loved ones losing them to the horrors of the person that you force them to see in the mirror each day Each breath Rigid and Choked Trying to be the person on the inside “Only inner beauty matters…”
Then why won’t you let them be more than The punch line.
I know It’s harmless Everyone laughs It’s funny
And everybody laughing And joking And smiling As they look past your soul Just searching for a witty response Instead of a human being
It isn’t harmless.
If I fall And I can’t even breathe I can’t even tell who I am And no one is around to hear my cries for help No one hears…
Do I still exist?
People stop wanting to exist when they feel like their life doesn’t exist. I’ve been there before
So
Just stop. Stop. Stop. Just stop. Think for a second.
What if that was you? What if it was your best friend? Your everything? And their existence is laughed off.
Until it shrivels and dies. No more growth. Not ever.
We are walking uphill through a snowstorm of meaningless arrows Poison soaking the tips And I can’t fight them forever. So please. Somebody help.
And even though you may finally hear my cries And cry with me You keep on shooting Not even thinking Because it is only natural now.
Please. Think. Stop. Think. Let me go. Let everyone try to figure out who they are What they want to be Without pushing waves of stereotypes And laughing at their dreams Scoffing their entire existence away
I feel like the entire world tries to laugh at life. To brush it off like it is meaningless, because that is easier. Life seems more fun that way. But what people don't realize, is at the punch line of every joke, there is another person. No one wants to be a joke. I'm so sick of watching people struggle. Life is hard enough without people hurling your own mistakes and flaws into your face.