Sometimes I catch myself remembering the smile you had when my fingers traced the lines of your face your neck shoulders hips. The way the sun came in through your windows. The noise you'd make when I'd nudge you. A reminder to wake up, to hold me closer. The warmth of your thin comfter the only thing protecting us from the day.
I want to pick up the phone but I can't call you. I won't ever hear your laugh. Sometimes I worry that my memories won't last. I want to call and say: Do you remember when we kissed for real. When you looked at me and said "I've been waiting for this for a long time"
Now everything that existed is just mine. And no one will ever remember how we shivered under your thin comforter hidden from the day.
The thing I hate most about death is I have no one to help me remember my favorite memories. Im so afraid to forget.