Ever acclimating to reality. Subtle differences between then and now. Hopelessness fades into almost happy. Depressed all the same but getting better. Minor inconveniences explode into melodrama. Relearning coping mechanisms like burning down sulphur. Olympian effort for maintaining expectations. Progress yet still nervous. Like standing on a sandstone cliff on the edge of the Grand Canyon. No difficulty fathoming how far I could fall. Challenge is trusting that I won't blindly jump into the river.